Don't get me wrong, I thank Heavenly Father every single day for the opportunity I have to be a mother, especially knowing so many who struggle with pregnancy. Evan is a gift and a HUGE blessing in my life; I would do everything all over just to have him in my family. However, like I mentioned above, so many fears flooded my mind every time I contemplated expanding our family; How was I supposed to take care of a busy toddler if I couldn't even take care of myself?
Earlier this year, a little miracle took place - I got pregnant! My fears and doubts soon turned to excitement to start a new journey. However, this pregnancy ended in a heartbreaking miscarriage and I was again left feeling fearful of becoming pregnant again. In the months that followed, I learned that Heavenly Father had a different plan for me when I really felt strongly that it was time to bring another baby into this world. Putting my insecurities aside, I decided to trust in my Heavenly Father - after all, he ALWAYS knows what's best for me.
It's when I decided to trust in my Heavenly Father that everything fell into place. In June, Dayne and I were blessed to find out that we would have the opportunity to be parents again! Such an exciting and blessed time in our lives. This is how we decided to tell our family:
Many have asked how this pregnancy has compared with Evan's. Well, to be completely honest, it's been another tough pregnancy. Once again, I have Hyperemsis Gravidarum - which means (even at 23 weeks) many days of puking 10-15 times. I can also pretty much guarantee getting a migraine every day. However, every so often I will have a "good day" where I'm able to function pretty normally. Despite sickness, Heavenly Father has blessed me with strength and endurance. I've also been blessed to have Dayne at home. Because Dayne's job doesn't start until mid-November, he's been able to stay home and take care of me. He's taken on many "motherly" responsibilities - grocery shopping, cleaning, watching Evan, etc. It truly has been such a tender mercy! Although it hasn't been easy, once again, Heavenly Father has provided a way.
We are BEYOND thrilled to welcome a little GIRL into our home March 1, 2015. What a blessing and a miracle that the baby is healthy, growing properly, and that Dayne and I have the opportunity to be parents again. I seriously can't wait for this little girl to get here; not to mention, Evan is going to be such a cute big brother!
|Wait, WHAT? I'm getting a little SISTER?|
|This picture documents a few things - 1. The first time I got ready ALL week 2. The start of a bump - 23 weeks 3. First preggo pic!|
|Embracing the bump :)|